Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Boy, do I need one of these!

Boy, but do I ever need one of these today! That guy has the right idea. Right now, I'm so tensed up, so infuriated, I could scream. Literally. Ugh!!! I hate it when I get this way. I haven't in a really long time. Maybe my stress is up because my immune system is down. I'm fighting a bacterial bronchitis at the moment and so have been home from the day job for two days now, in bed, with only the TV, my laptop, and my family to keep me company. You'd think that'd bring DOWN my stress level. After all, I've not had to deal with a cranky, bitchy customer in more than two days. Unfortunately, being bored, I've had more time to blog hop and surf around online than normal - have laptop, will travel, even when flat on my back sick in bed. I made the big mistake of checking out a message board I've not been to in awhile, one dealing with an ex-employer of sorts, one that always incites me. Having more time than usual, I spent more time there than ordinary. Then I ended up on You Tube watching some videos stating their opinion of this organization. Now, I happen to share most of the video makers' opinions. It was the opposition replying that got me riled up. My fault, I know, for letting it. My fault for reading it in the first place. My fault for not totally dropping it like I keep swearing to do. I understand that people on both sides have a right to express their views. I understand that when people feel attacked, they will defend themselves. I understand it's a highly emotional and usually irrational arena. What I don't understand is two things: 1) why I am being a big doofus to get involved ever again, even so much as reading it as I well know there's no dealing with cultists and being able to hold a sane conversation with any of these individuals - rather makes me insane, too. Right? 2) if it's illegal (at least I think it is) for an ex-employer to bash an ex-employee publicly (i.e. saying things like "she was too lazy and didn't try hard enough" wouldn't fly. At least I'm pretty sure it wouldn't. Here's one of the digs that's just making me boil: "Maybe if you spent more time working than playing with toys you might be able to make something out of your business. It is a job, you do actually have to work. I've been in the business for 1 year now and I've already been on stage, recruited a few people, and had plenty of bookings and commissions - just get off your butt," Isn't it amazing how people assume how much someone else works or doesn't work? That they *think* they have insider information into someone else's life so they think they have the right to put them down - anywhere, but particularly online for the world to see. To me, a lot of incendiary words were used in that remark above. If someone at my day job spoke to another employee, a customer, or anyone like that, we'd be immediately talked to and given more training at a minimum. We are not allowed to be so disrespectful. If we said something like that on line, I'd be lucky to have a job left - most likely I'd be written up with a stern warning. I wonder, am I just being sensitive, maybe ultra-sensitive, or would you find a comment like that insulting and ignorant, too? This wasn't the only thing to get my goat in the past couple days, although this was the main one. On one of my writer's loops, the discussion grew political. I don't have a political bone in my body and doubt I ever will. It bores me. A discussion unfortunately, turned political on this loop, so rightfully, according to the loop's stated guidelines, the moderator stepped in and asked nicely for the loop members to refrain from continuing the discussion. Unfortunately, people are still discussing the taboo subject anyway. Normally, I wouldn't give it a second thought. I'm just already on a mad, so I noticed. To top it off, I mentioned something completely different to my hubby when he got home from work. He didn't like it, and so he went mounted a defensive. Enough already! Sheesh! I asked him to drop it and I even put in my ear plugs. He kept talking and glared at me when I wasn't responding. I wonder if it would have worked better (probably worse, though) if I wore an ear protector like the one above that also says, "Bullshit Protector". You know, thinking about it, I know what's really wrong with me. I ran out of my Lexapro and Wellbrutin a couple weeks ago. I have to wait until payday tomorrow to renew them. So let me lie low for a few days until the meds have had time to get back into my system and put me back on track. Meanwhile, I'll keep my ear plugs in and avoid that site that's infuriating me. Also, please help me wish my DD#2 a very happy 18th birthday today. I can't believe my baby girl is all grown up. This is her last year of high school and she could move out after this year if she wants. College, probably although she's still undecided. (See a recent post about this). You'll also want to see what Amarinda Jones, Anika Hamilton, Anny Cook, Barbara Huffert, Brynn Paulin, Bronwyn Green, Dakota Rebel, Kelly Kirch, Molly Daniels, Sandra Cox, Regina Carlysle, and Cindy Spencer Pape are up to, so make sure to visit them also. :)

2 comments:

Molly Daniels said...

Happy 18th birthday, DD#2:)

Yeah...I looked at my son the other day and said, 'You're going to be 17 this year?'

Hard to believe...at 16 he's still 'my baby'...but 17 is so close to be grown up...know what I mean?

Ashley Ladd said...

I sure do. My second youngest just turned 18 and is a senior in high school.

My baby will start high school next year.

My oldest will be 30 in two years and two months. Eek!

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